Maggie de Vera Blogs: REFLECTIONS…

My high today

Posted in ROYAL,Reflections,Uncategorized by Administrator on the February 13th, 2013

My high today:
I was dreading a long day at work today- starting off very early and training my new executive assistant with just mere fractions of numerous projects she’ll have to learn, understand, carry thru. Followed by back to back therapy clients with no breaks. Then ending a long work day with a long work-night to work with our Juvenile Probation boys at our Evening Reporting Center (because of being short-staffed, I decided to cover every Tuesday by myself until I hire someone- instead of cancelling tuesdays all together). As ROYAL’s CEO, I dont get to spend as much time with our kids at all so this is a rarity.
After a long day with no real breaks, I began my evening hearing negative reports/updates of the boys since last week. I was annoyed. I pulled the boys into my office, read them the riot act, told them I had no patience to deal with any excuses, negativity, or having to redirect them. I only wanted to see the utmost respectful, gentlemanly behaviors. This group of boys have been extra challenging to my staff of which i usually have 2 staff working together. Tonight it was just me.
We took a drive thru SF, dropped off my assistant- the whole time talking about their lives, their crew/friends, their fears, their need to “fake it” thru life as a thug even though they don’t always want to live that way. One of the boys said, “Maggie, every one thinks we’re thugs. We’re not. We just pretend to be.” This statement came from a young man who has been arrested and rearrested over and over again. Another one said, “sometimes i just want to get out- but if i do- i won’t have protection- and i know i’ll die”. I told him that many of our kids have stayed in their negative lifestyles for that very reason- and have died because of NOT getting out.
These boys are so lost. Their view of the future is so limited. So much of their acting out is from witnessing the worst of the worst, being traumatized at such early ages and having no sense of hope for the future- among many other factors.
I was telling them a story of how I overcame much of my own adversities and traumas and created a good life for myself now. One of them so innocently said, “Maggie, do you mean that we can make a life that can be paradise?” lol. I told him that we all have the power to achieve many things and how we perceive it is what determines whether it’s paradise or not. I also told them that we also definitely have the power to make our life hell…
At the end of night, one of the boys (who’s considered to be the biggest challenge towards staff) said, “Man Maggie, I don’t want to go home. I want to talk all night. I never talked like this before. Thank you and the program for caring about us and not judging us. I feel like I can do better when we talk like this”. He hugged me tightly when he left- so humbled and so vulnerable… All of them.
God Bless these kids- a victim of their circumstances. May their lives be touched and may they experience Miracles, life’s beauty and Blessings. May we continue our mission.
Thank you Lord. I am humbled yet again…